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freelance consultant // right brain planner // art journaler {artist & dreamer; maker of collage & altered books; doodler & junk-mail collager; stargazer & red dirt gardener} // day-dream believer & visual thinker {outed introvert & discoverer of the magic of solitude and quietness}

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    My week has been intense with reality checks from dis-ease {MS} … sleeplessness has resulted in roller coaster levels of clarity, energy, and calmness. Pain is high; neuropathy is raging.
Art journaling was the most significant aid for me to accept the unacceptable. I was introduced to “art therapy” when I had cancer; tearing paper, watercolor and doodling, and finding a “no rules” means of expressing my emotions and occupying myself has saved my sanity. The days are tearful and frustrating, but tearing paper and collage, watercolors over doodles and sketches, restore my focus and allow the tears to pause and move me through emotionally. 
There literally are seasons of time I “forget” I have this dis-ease. It hits me suddenly and hard and then I am incapacitated and bedfast; angry and sad, resisting the overwhelm and feelings of “being a burden.”  I have felt much better this summer than I have in years. But when the summer heat intensified, my body crashed. It “surprised” me and I felt completely to blame. As if I could have prevented the flare up by doing something different?
{sigh}

    My week has been intense with reality checks from dis-ease {MS} … sleeplessness has resulted in roller coaster levels of clarity, energy, and calmness. Pain is high; neuropathy is raging.

    Art journaling was the most significant aid for me to accept the unacceptable. I was introduced to “art therapy” when I had cancer; tearing paper, watercolor and doodling, and finding a “no rules” means of expressing my emotions and occupying myself has saved my sanity. 

    The days are tearful and frustrating, but tearing paper and collage, watercolors over doodles and sketches, restore my focus and allow the tears to pause and move me through emotionally.

    There literally are seasons of time I “forget” I have this dis-ease. It hits me suddenly and hard and then I am incapacitated and bedfast; angry and sad, resisting the overwhelm and feelings of “being a burden.” 

    I have felt much better this summer than I have in years. But when the summer heat intensified, my body crashed. It “surprised” me and I felt completely to blame. As if I could have prevented the flare up by doing something different?

    {sigh}

    — 57 minutes ago
    #Multiple Sclerosis  #daily  #augustbreak2014 
    "We don’t like specificity. It’s too much work. … We support, but keep it generic."

    Words are important. Our whys are important. I’m starting to reach for specifics, even when it’s difficult. If anything, it’s slowing me down (which is probably a good thing, honestly) and forcing me to search for the best word, not just the easiest.

    What I’ve learned: when you begin to take more time building your own personal specifics, this practice will bleed into your writing.

    (Source: eloranicole.com)

    — 1 hour ago
    #specificity  #quote 
    Go from me. Yet I feel that I shall stand
    Go from me. Yet I feel that I shall stand
    Henceforward in thy shadow. Nevermore
    Alone upon the threshold of my door
    Of individual life, I shall command
    The uses of my soul, nor lift my hand
    Serenely in the sunshine as before,
    Without the sense of that which I forbore, ..
    Thy touch upon the palm. The widest land
    Doom takes to part us, leaves thy heart in mine
    With pulses that beat double. What I do
    And what I dream include thee, as the wine
    Must taste of its own grapes. And when I sue
    God for myself, He hears that name of thine,
    And sees within my eyes, the tears of two.
    By Elizabeth Barrett Browning
    — 3 hours ago with 2 notes
    #elizabeth barrett browning  #loss  #mourning  #sonnet  #poetry 
    amandaonwriting:

Happy Birthday, Annie Proulx, born 22 August 193510 Quotes On Writing 

    amandaonwriting:

    Happy Birthday, Annie Proulx, born 22 August 1935
    10 Quotes On Writing 

    — 3 hours ago with 30 notes
    theartjournaler:

// attempting to find middle ground between angst of change & the grace of new beginnings {where it all feels impossible}

{marking this place for my-self}

    theartjournaler:

    // attempting to find middle ground between angst of change & the grace of new beginnings {where it all feels impossible}

    {marking this place for my-self}

    — 1 day ago with 13 notes
    #the art journaler 

    {elements of daily practice & my “workout buddies”}

    — 4 days ago with 1 note
    #daily  #yogaeverydamnday  #wellness  #love  #self care 
    Because her tribe embraces pink as a sign, an unsuspected power color prior to its serendipitous occurrences … But now a sign of Next-to-be, a reminder to hope and to love and to try — one.more.time 💗

    Because her tribe embraces pink as a sign, an unsuspected power color prior to its serendipitous occurrences … But now a sign of Next-to-be, a reminder to hope and to love and to try — one.more.time 💗

    — 4 days ago with 1 note
    #tajsky  #pink  #skyview 
    {her way was now clear and mapped on the sky}

    {her way was now clear and mapped on the sky}

    — 5 days ago with 1 note
    #skyview  #clouds 
    There are no mistakes, no coincidences, all events are given to us to learn from. -Elizabeth K. Ross

    There are no mistakes, no coincidences, all events are given to us to learn from. -Elizabeth K. Ross

    — 5 days ago with 6 notes
    #skyview  #Elizabeth K Ross  #mistakes 
    Trust yourself. Create the kind of self that you will be happy to live with all your life. -Golda Meir

// adding to a page from an altered book throughout today as I release what was …

    Trust yourself. Create the kind of self that you will be happy to live with all your life. -Golda Meir

    // adding to a page from an altered book throughout today as I release what was …

    — 5 days ago with 3 notes
    #trust  #quote  #golda meir  #undaunted  #august break 2014  #look down 
    "i don’t want to owe you anything or leave anything unexpressed so i am taking care of those details now" // a page from an altered book I filtered and will be adding to throughout today as I release what was …

    "i don’t want to owe you anything or leave anything unexpressed so i am taking care of those details now" // a page from an altered book I filtered and will be adding to throughout today as I release what was …

    — 6 days ago with 2 notes
    #mourning  #loss  #closure  #augustbreak2014  #altered book  #handwritten  #art journal